I have still until today for the life of me not figured out what it is about this freaky anthropomorphic over sexualised(Bring on the hate) online community that attracts me to it, well until very recently. Yes at some stage I thought it was the yiff and the yiff only but that is narrow minded. Idiotic if you will. As a person that is able to pronounce words, walk and talk surely there must be something more compelling to the fandom than pictures of anthropomorphic animals doing the nasty.
This sent me into a thinking spiral if I may state it so, I spent more than a year wondering about this fascination. I eventually arrived back at the yiff again, but not the hetero sexual type. I started thinking maybe I am attracted to the more male homosexual aspects and yet no it didn't do anything for me. Though I do have a deep appreciation for the various art style of all yiff and I do mean all yiff. Especially the anatomy of most characters and I do find it interesting seeing how most artists draw the estranged art.
Being straight in the furry fandom is sometimes really hard. Most good literature, art, comics etc are catered to the masses of the fandom being Bi-curious and Homosexual (Yes I know there are many various sexuality but please bear with me). So I arrived at a point where I started thinking maybe I am Bi-Curious. I started looking into more Bi things, no need to mention, and yeah it was interesting and again I did appreciate the art but no. Nothing does it more for me than a sexy Vixen or female sharky, instant nose bleed. Right, so now having explored my sexuality to a degree I found that I am straight up hetero sexual.
So if it's not my sexuality and not a sexual attraction what is it then? At this point I started questioning everything. My general thinking was that I do not fit here, I fit nowhere. Why am I wasting so much time on this crap. For some time I was inactive, yes furries did often pop up in my mind but I shook it off and continued my day.
I was fursuiting at rAge when it hit me, the reason why I am a furry and what makes me fit into this crazy online community is fursuiting. I love it, I look at fursuits into late night hours, gathering ideas for making suits. Gathering pricing info to save for a commission one day from PhoenixWolfSuits. My true passion in the fandom is fursuiting. I have come to the realisation that it is a form of art, each suit created each thought processed each and every design made is the artistic process of the creation of wearable pieces of art. Now I understand pricing, now I understand the hype behind fursuits. It's more than just being a furry and being weird, it's about creating your own art and seeing it come to life.
Many people see it as simply fursuiting your character or cosplaying yet it is so much more than just that. I smile the whole time when creating the pieces, I thoroughly enjoy it. Yes my dad doesn't understand why I am suddenly spending so much money on materials, needles, foam, thread and a sewing machine. His son is now doing needle work with a sewing machine WTF! For the first two or three commissions I did I would hide this from my dad, waiting for him not to be home. But I don't care I enjoy being artistic for once in my life.
Now I take my sewing machine on vacations XD I completed more than one commission on vacation because I enjoyed it. Making my fursuit head was a stressful blast.
Yes I know I talked about myself allot in this post but I wrote what came to mind and that was my personal experience with our cooky crazy fandom. I think my existence in this fandom is a sure thing, for something that I have so much passion for I wouldn't easily give up.
I have decided to not let my sexuality come in the way with this fandom. I have seen many times how sexuality, love, relationship and now hate destroy someone's interest in the fandom (Yes I know quite a touchy topic, lets move on)
I will never stop liking yiff though
I am actually planning on starting a fursuit creation business and I will do some practice whilst doing my degree. My degree is quite tedious and long and I have to work very hard for a few years to achieve the CA(SA) qualification. But my plan is still to start the fursuit business at some point in time. For now I might take some commissions to practice during my vacations. My greatest concern is what the demand really is like for fursuits in SA.
